Entry 27 – Another lost star – Zainab Jibril

NAME: ZAINAB JIBRIL
HOME ADDRESS : AREA C, BLOCK 161, NYANYA ABUJA.
SCHOOL: UNIVERSITY OF ABUJA
COUSRE: POLITICAL SCIENCE AND INTERNATIONAL RELATIONS

ANOTHER LOST STAR

The sky that night was darker than usual
The moon that decorated the sky that night was absent
Even the stars were scantily scattered
In whole, the aura of that night spelt doom.
He came Home reeking of poison as usual
And then the nightmares began all over.
Like the nights before, he apologized when he was done.
He even went as far as blaming her for the scars he caused
He manipulated her feelings until the abused became the abuser
She would live her scars unattended to soothe his wounds even though he was the reason she bled.
It became a routine everyday until even the thought of him made her shudder.
She learnt to mask the scars so well because she was ashamed of them.
She died slowly and painfully each day but no one could tell because she had become a master at hiding the scars so well…

Memesmirized by the dark sky of that night,
She dreamed dreams of better days.
So lost In thought, she didn’t hear the creekings until it was too late.
Jumping over bottles of his poison,
She ran and tried to hide under the bed but she wasn’t fast enough.
He had seen her already.
Twas too late.
The routine started all over again
And as usual, her cries and pleas go unheard.
But unlike every other night, the nightmare of that night never came to an end until it was truly over.
She lost hope and fought no more
Closing her eyes dripping crimson,
She gave up the fight.
And as her light dimmed, the galaxies lost another star…
Another beautiful soul was lost to the cruel hands of the monster called domestic violence…

REBIRTH

I thought I knew you but now I know
better…
You made it impossible for me to survive without you…
You made sure you had me wrapped around your pesky fingers…
You sucked me in like a vacuum and created an emptiness in me that had no depths…
You manipulated me and made me your slave…
And now, am trapped…
Scratching at the walls of pain,
trying to escape the demons you introduced into my life,
trying to escape the darkness fogging up my mind…
You’ve lied to me all these years…
You were my worst nightmare in guise…
Even if it kills me to kill you, I will bravely face death in a duel…

How was I this gullible to believe the lies you fed me…
How was I this foolish to trust you the way I did…
When I fell, you were there watching and waiting…
Like a wild beast hunting for a prey
And when you saw that I had lost the last glimpse of hope left in me,
You came clothed in warmth and crowned with pseudo light…
Your smile was strong enough to bring mine back from Hades…
You pulled me up and when I began to walk, you knocked me down again…
You did it over and over again But I was to foolish to realize What you were doing…
You promised me heaven and then sent me to hell when I wasn’t watching…
You stood at its gate and watched me burn while you laughed at my predicament like the sick psycho you are…
You ruined my life then wished me well like you weren’t the Genesis of my death…

But now my days of foolishness are over…
The years I spent in hell opened my eyes to the monstrosity you are…
You awakened a tempest in me that refuses to calm until I see you go down the pit you once dragged me…
Now watch as I arise like a Phoenix from the ashes of my past…
Now watch as I burn acid and sulphur till I consume every bit of your being…
Now watch as I drag you down the endless pit of Hades while I stand at its gates and watch you burn and scream in anguish like the sick demon you are…

I’ll prove to you that I am a survivor…
I’ll give you a taste of your own medicine…
I’ll stand guard and watch you swallow the bitter pill while I mock you endlessly…
You thought you’ve destroyed me completely but karma my cell mate deep down in Hades helped me bounce back to give you double portion of What you dished out to me and other unfortunate victims…
You better watch out now because karma is gonna prove to you that she can be much more than the bitch she’s infamous for..
And am gonna prove to you that you don’t play games with the spawn of Hades without getting scarred for life…

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